joyce

I miss everything about you

2010-09-20T00:49:00.002+08:00

grandmother, i miss you
i miss everything about you
happy 2 c u in my dream
i tot it is real
u still alive
but when i wake up
everything is back 2 normal

无法面对事实

2010-08-01T02:36:00.002+08:00

我还是无法面对事实
想到要打回家的时候，
我又哭了
家里不在热闹了
家里只剩 daddy n mummy
如果daddy 去做工就剩下mummy 一个人
mummy 你一个人在家一定很闷吧
妈咪你会习惯吗？

我不敢想象新年的时候会怎样度过
少了一个人就少了很多事情

如果时间可以从来
我一定选择不出国
我会呆在KL读书
至少我可以常回家陪家人

现在对我来说家人最重要
一旦失去了再也不能拥有

妈咪和DADDY原谅我的固执
我应该听你们的话不出国读书
对不起我给你们很多负担

二零一零年七月二十六

2010-07-26T21:53:00.003+08:00

二零一零年七月二十六日，马来西亚下午二点多
我最爱的婆婆去世了
我的心碎了
我再也听不到你的声音
我再也无法见到你最后一面
我再也听不到你在跟我倒数我还剩几个月就能回家了

婆婆，爸爸说你走的很好，没有带痛苦
我好想送你最后一程，可是大家不肯
因为大家怕我很赶，我现在到机场也没人来接我
大家都在家陪你

阿婆，
谢谢你教我客家话
谢谢你给我零用钱
谢谢你看我长大
谢谢你最疼我
谢谢你对我的好

从小到大我和阿婆一起住
她最疼我直到她去世

从中学到我出国我都是跟她同房一起睡觉
她为了我而哭了两次
那两次是我要来澳洲的时候

我的手提电脑也算是阿婆买给我的
她也常给我零用钱因为她怕我吃不饱和不够钱买东西

有很多事我还没报答阿婆，你就已经离开我了
我好想明年你的生日买燕窝给你因为你不喜欢我们给你钱或买蛋糕给你。。。我永远做不到了
现在你已经去天堂见阿公了
你们要幸福
也要保佑我们
因为家里真的出了很多事情
要保佑爸爸和妈妈身体健康
要保佑熊家和睦相处
要保佑熊家一切安好

对不起让我为阿婆哭几天吧
哭够后我才有心情读书

担心

2010-07-25T13:00:00.002+08:00

自从六月到现在
我每天都在担心
担心学业和家人
几乎睡不好，吃不下
经常失眠和只吃一餐

现在成绩出了
让我更难熬
我努力了可是
换来的是失败
我又不及格一科
我又不能顺利毕业了
我真的心很痛

家里也发生很多事情
爸爸的事，姐姐的事。。。。和
我最爱，最疼我的婆婆生病了
她住院了一个星期
现在又要换医院
我真的很担心她
婆婆，你的病要快点好
我知道你都在倒数我还剩几个月就可以回家
你一定要等我
每次和你通话，我的心情是开心又难过
开心因为能听到你的声音
难过因为我想你，也知道你在担心我

每个星期日都会打回家和妈妈，爸爸，婆婆聊天
现在害怕打回家
这两个星期，打回家好几次都没人接
只好打去妈咪的手机
一接电话妈咪就告诉我不好的消息
那就是婆婆住院了
听到后我已经掉泪了
不敢哭出来因为怕妈咪担心和难过

现在真的害怕打回家
几乎六月到现在
每次打回家
妈咪告诉我的不是快乐的事情
而是难过能让我流泪的事
我的心很痛
因为我不能回家
不能关心他们

妈咪说daddy 瘦了很多
daddy 不敢让妈咪知道他瘦了多少
妈咪只是说他很多事情烦
也常抽烟
听后我又掉泪了

2010 年不是好的一年给我和家人
担心，难过的2010年
希望不好的事情快点过
希望下星期
爸妈和婆婆在家等我电话
希望家里一切安好
而我也能专心读书

can't sleep

2009-09-15T02:52:00.003+08:00

time >> Australia: 5.00 am Malaysia : 3.00 am
Everyone is sleeping but i still awake .
Since last week i sleep early in the morning bcos of the assignmentssss,
i get use ready n i dun noe how 2 adjust back my sleeping time.

new life in hostel >>
so far not bad ... i know more friends ( much better than last sem)
Most of them r from malaysia ,singapore,indonesia n hong kong.
They r friendly but some of them r talkative especially boys !!!
I dun like to cook so i join 1 group of frens 4 dinner ,call "cooking group".
7 members in the cooking group- 2 groups v 2 ppl will cook n 3 ppl 4 washing dishes.
so everytime after the dinner i will take turn v another 2 frens 2 wash the dishes.
i'm from block B n 6 of them r from block A(ground floor) .
so everytime i need 2 go block A 4 dinner n some of the ppl think i stay at block A but i'm not .
so "i'm a citizen in block B n PR in block A" haha
if i dun join my cooking group 4 dinner ,
i will go upstair in block A 4 dinner ...join another group v 3 ppl .
they seldom cook ...usually they go out 4 dinner bcos 2 of them got cars so i will go out 4 dinner v them too ....
if i dun wan 2 join anyone 4 dinner then i need 2 cook myself ...
guess wat i cook ??? ( answer me at the c box)

will be continue ....time 2 sleep ..guys , good morning !!!
hope i can wake up n dun miss my class again !!!

不开心

2009-06-27T22:48:00.002+08:00

终于考完试了，可是我不是很开心
因为这次的考试我没有准备到很好
觉得我又要不及格了
这次不是考卷很难而是我没准备到很好而且我也很紧张
cost info 我确定一定不及格因为很多不会做还有粗心
而其他三科不是刚刚好及格就是不及格。。。

考完试了，我还是很担心
很内疚
天天睡不好
我看要等到成绩公布那天
我的心才会安心
才会睡好

我觉得好失败
很对不起家人

我的心很痛
天天都在痛

希望菩萨保佑我
希望我可以拿的到4P 而不是4N
菩萨我答应你我会勤劳读书
不再好玩，懒惰和没准备齐全
害怕这次菩萨都帮不了我了。。。
HAIZ。。。。。。

不喜欢六月。。。只想七月快点降临。。

2009-05-26T16:35:00.002+08:00

终于忙完我这个学期的assignments n tests 。。。
还有十六天就要面临考试了（六月）。。。
还没开始读书。。。一直想着出门，看戏，上网。。。
就是静不下来读书。。。
不能这样下去了。。。
要开始温书，不然会考不好甚至不及格。。。
不想再重读一样的东西。。。怕了。。。
不抱太大的希望。。。只希望四科都能及格就很满意了。。。
要求是满低的可是要及格真的不简单而且我不想跟别人比较分数。。。
做好自己的本分就开心了。。。

六月快点过，七月快点到来。。。。
七月是冬天的降临。。。不喜欢冬天可是还是很期待
因为很多事情会发生。。。好事还是坏事我不晓得
直到七月我才跟你们说吧。。哈哈

七月才会再写了。。。祝大家考到好成绩。。。大家也要祝我哦 ^^

sick again !!

2009-04-24T01:00:00.003+08:00

i'm sick from sunday until now
b4 the school start i'm sick summore i haven't finish two of the assignments (cost info n com rep) ....
i dun noe y i'm sick again ....
bcos of the weather...mayb bcos sometimes it is hot day but after tat it will bcome very cold, especially at nite !!!
or mayb not enough sleep
Actually i dun feel so stress in this two assignments bcos it is not very hard but just dun noe whether my answers are correct or not ....
i just feel a bit weak n at nite i can't sleep well bcos of my sick ( 伤风所以鼻塞）

n now i miss home again ... i miss the hug .... i still rmb the day in airport ... i hug my family 2 say goodbye 2 them b4 i leave ...
n last few days , one of my fren was hug me but it is in my dream .... it is dream but i can feel it n i feel that the hug is giving me some support ...

讲到梦(my funny dream)。。自从我来澳洲到现在我的梦都是停留在马来西亚，每天的梦都是我的家人和家乡的朋友（幻想我回去马来西亚然后又回来澳洲）。。。我都会在梦中告诉朋友“我多几天就回澳洲了”，当我被闹钟吵醒时我才知道原来又是在做梦了。在梦中我很开心，醒来后就有点不开心，。原来 i miss malaysia very much n i still need more time 2 get use the life in australia ....

wednesday i tot i can meet v ah poh bcos she came 2 mebourne 2 find us ....
but i fail 2 meet v her bcos wednesday i got 2 tutorial class den i feel tired n a bit weak
if i dun sick i sure go n find her after my tutorial class....
ah poh, i noe u will give me a big hug when u c me but i miss it ...

now i need a hug from my family or best frens 2 encourage me ...
hope i can get well soon ...i hate sick bcos when i'm sick ,i will miss home very much ...

sad day ...

2009-03-21T11:48:00.002+08:00

现在心情不是很好加上肚子不舒服。。。
刚才明明很开心打电话回家跟爸妈，婆婆还有大哥聊天。。。
挂了电话后心情就不好了。。。
我又想家了吗？
还是每当我生病的时候都希望有家人陪在我身边照顾我呢？
每当我生病的时候我都会想家然后眼泪就不停地在流。。。

还是妈咪最了解我的身体状况，她知道我的肚子常会不舒服，
她知道我会不适应这里的吃喝。。。（但我告诉她我适应，因为不想让她担心我）
我希望她现在在这里照顾我，但我知道是不可能的事。。。
现在我需要学会照顾自己，学会独立。。。可是我做不到！
我需要多一些时间学会它们。。。

其实妈咪不希望我出国因为她怕我不会照顾自己
家人也没逼我出国，一切的决定都由我自己作主
最后我坚持要出国因为这是我其中一个梦想
我的梦想是在外国读书和毕业。。
既然我决定要来这里也已经到了这里，
我就要负责到底，不能让家人担心

JOYCE 要加油，勇敢面对一切，不能再逃避了

daddy, mummy , jie jie , gor gor n ah poh ... i miss u all
frens , i miss u all too ...

a new life in melbourne

2009-02-23T22:16:00.000+08:00

almost one week in melbourne
everything is fine here
the weather is good
not very hot but very dry here
everyday i must apply my body lotion , moisturiser n lip balm 4 twice
if not my skin will become more dry
a lot of asian food here

last wed i went 2 uni 4 the enrolment day
berwick campus is very small
smaller than sunway campus
i met a lot of ppl who r transfer from sunway campus
i'm so happy tat the cafeteria in uni sell a lot of asian food n the boss come from perak
besides tat, i can find asian food in city n supermarket .
after finish enrolment ,my bro n i went 2 supermarket
bcos he wanted to cook ....
tat night ,he cook curry chicken n vegetables
very nice n my homestay family love it

my homestay family r friendly 2 us (my bro n i)
they bring us went 2 city n zoo ( is Healesville , not melbourne zoo)
a zoo tat i can closer the animals especially the kangaroos...
i saw the Koala too but no chance to touch them
the koalas keep sleeping in the trees

last thurs my bro n i went 2 the city
i love there but felt tired bcos we take a lot of pics n walk 4 a long time
in lunch time, we went to meet my sis's fren (Kris)
he is australian ...he came 2 my house 10 years ago ( i still rmb him)

last few days which is sat , my homestay family bring us 2 pub 4 the dinner
my bro treat them as last dinner ...

now feel lonely after my bro went back 2 kl
he went bek yesterday n same flight v YY's parents
the last one week i owes depend on my bro
but now i can't, i must do it myself ...everything!!!
i will try to get use to the new life in melbourne

hey friends, i miss u all a lot ...
if free chat v me ,ok ?
email me can also ....
i will feel very happy when i c your email but pls dun foward message 2 me ...

if u want 2 ask me 2 call u can also but must give me malaysia's home number
it is cheap if i call home ...hehe

ok chat next time
bye n take care in malaysia
muackkk

a new life is coming soon

2009-02-11T20:23:00.001+08:00

15th feb 9.35pm i will go to australiai
still packing my luggageomg a lot of things need 2 pack ....
hope i can finish it on fri night...
sat morning will go 2 kl meet my bro ....
my 2nd bro will acc me go 2 au 4 one weekthank u ...
brother den sun after dinner will go 2 klia v my family
daddy's give me his camera den i will bring it 2 au
my frens i will take many photo as i can den upload at friendster or facebook
so u all can c how's my life in au
wan 2 have a gathering v my frens but most of them busy in study
n i also busy too so no time 2 meet up
but lucky chinese new year we meet together n take some photo
hope i enjoy my new life in melbourne
i will miss my family n frens very much
i love u all...muackkkk
keep in touch n take care

pai seh i quite emo now ...

miss my frens

2009-01-18T00:09:00.002+08:00

just cum bek from outside......
i go yum cha v daddy, mummy n their frens
den i saw JY n his frens....
wah so good he yum cha v a group of frens ....
dun noe izit his secondary schoolmate .....hehe
i feel jealous .....cos i miss the time tat i go Alif n yum cha v my secondary schoolmates ...
also a group of ppl ...need 3 tables 2 join it ..... tat time quite difficult 2 chat 2gether
but we still very enjoy our yum cha day
tat day also my last time yum cha v them
hey, frens when we can go yum cha ...i miss u all hope b4 i go 2 australia we got chance go 2 yum cha again
n my mufy gang .... i miss the time we go 4 dinner n sing k 2gether ....
when we can cum out again .......
i dun have bf nvm but i can't lost my frens
i got a bit frigthen when i reach australia
i need 2 start a new life at there
i need 2 make new frens at new place
i afraid my frens will 4get me when i'm at australia
i afraid they dun wan email n msn v me
omg , am i think too much....
anyway i miss all my frens very much ...
hope our friendship 4ever
hope 2 c u all soon
muackkk

2008-12-17T13:20:00.003+08:00

last weekends i went 2 sunway v lai chai's car
go 2 apply visa
den mon i go 4 medical checkup ...everything is ok so now the visa is in process ...
still need 2 wait 4 2 weeks 2 get my visa ....
bcos of my mistake n monash staff did not do well their job
so i need 2 post my hostel form by myself ....
hope the hostel managment can arrange a room 4 me 2 stay in
den yesterday cum bek 2 my hometown
will go 2 kl again on 20th ...
go kl 2 meet my frens n go shopping v my family
i wan go kl count down 4 christmas but sis n bro wan 2 cum bek hometown
so 24th i will be bek 2 my hometown 2 celebrate xmas v my family

just few days in kl i spend a lot of money in food n things
i buy a new wallet, belt n clothes
still a lot of things i wan 2 buy but i spend too much edy
so i decide buy it again when i go kl v my family ...haha

my 2nd bro confirm 2 me tat he wil acc me go 2 australia 4 around one week
but the air ticket very expensive so dun noe he can afford 2 pay it or not ...
i dun force him 2 go v me ....he is the one who suggest himself acc me go 2 australia
anyway wan 2 thx my bro cos i dun expect u will acc me ...
i tot i will take flight alone ....

i book my flight edy
malaysia airlines
from KLIA
sunday,15th feb ,9.30pm
welcome everyone 2 cum tat time ....
i will very happy 2 c u at airport

Big Day!!!

2008-12-11T18:23:00.007+08:00

edit by joyce

2day is a big day !!!!
still rmb wat day is it ? ?
yeah 2day is joyce's birthday
happy birthday 2 joyce
2day is my 20th birthday
the early present i receive is from xiao wei ...
it is also my last present 4 this year
i dun care how many presents i get
no present also nvm
as long i can receive the words " happy birthday" from my family n friends
i feel very happy edy
2day i received a lot of birthday wish from my friends
thx u all .....muackkkkk
my birthday wish is every year more ppl rmb my birthday ^^

happy birthday 2 Ada too
wish u faster can get a gf n happy owes ....

no celebration 4 this year
bcos i'm not feeling well now ....
mummy also sick edy
i'm sick since last 2 days
den yesterday i go cs v my secondary schoolmate
go 4 movie n sing k
so now got little fever
wanna go 2 rest lo ....
bb

miss a lot

2008-11-21T13:01:00.001+08:00

Sorry long time no update my blog edy
Miss me rite? Haha
Last few months busy 2 do my assignments n prepare 4 my exam
Exam ar …….cham lo ….. very difficult
But I try my best 2 do well liao
Hope all my exam can pass
I dun wan retake again !!!
Guys wish me good luck

At home now around two weeks liao
Last Sunday lance, jan win , boon long n xiao wei cum 2 my hometown
I bring them go 2 kukup cos dun noe where 2 go liao haha
Den I stay at xiao wei’s house ….
I play mahjong at her house v her n her mother (a lot of fun)
After tat, go 2 watch scary movie v boon long ,lance n xiao wei

Very boring at home
Everyday watch TV n play computer game
I miss kl life n kl frens
I miss skating, shopping n yam cha
I miss xiao wei, ke ai , wei wen n da jie ….muackkkk
Dun noe when 5 of us can go out again
I miss the life that 5 of us hang out 2gether 4 dinner n shopping
I miss sing k v liyi ,peishi , da jie n xiao wei
I miss my roomate, xiao wei
We have been roomate more den 2 years edy
U r forever my lovely roomate…muackkk

Just now my godbrother call me n tell me that he is on the way bek from Melaka lo
Later will go 2 eat lunch v him

Time 2 say bye bye
Write next time ……. muackkkk

lousy network!!!

2008-09-08T14:25:00.000+08:00

quite a long time i dun update my blog lo
want 2 update it but can't online at hostel
n long time can't use msn ...haiz
damn damn damn

now at monash update my blog .....

last few days jie, ke ai, n xiao wei go home
i alone but i keep going out v frens n bro

thurs went 2 watch wall-e v a da after tat go 4 dinner at pyramid
fri go pyramid again .... go skating v alex n a da n their frens
sat go out v my bro ....go 2 petrosains at klcc den go 2 mid valley watch money not enough 2
the movie quite funny de .... i like it ....
sun go 2 pyramid again ...alone
go 2 buy mooncake ....chocolate mooncake .....
haven't try it ...hope is nice taste

last few days can't online but lucky got xsocam
xsocam got chat room so i go there chit chat v new frens lo

when the hostel connection will be ok ?
i wan use my msn ,check mail n bla bla
without internet very bored ar
hope ican use msn sooon......
haiz......

at hostel again

2008-08-18T01:30:00.002+08:00

现在在宿舍了。。。到了KL就在姑姑家看完羽球赛才回来宿舍。。。
lee chong wei输了有点可惜和失望可是他还是能拿到银牌，已经算很好了，下一届再加油吧。。。

最近在家都是偷用邻居的wireless上网。。哈哈

因为家里的上网线很慢而且一直dc所以就借用邻居的。。

这都是我哥发现的wireless。。。以前我还以为我家这里没人用wireless呢

可是都是大哥用我的laptop online因为他的laptop 中病毒所以拿去修理了害我不能上网。。。

在家感觉很幸福因为可以吃妈咪煮的菜，可以看astro和可以跟妈咪聊天

可是。。。这里的天气很热。。。我昨天一到家就一直不停的流汗

不管是在家还是在外面都觉得超热的。。。

为什么笨珍的天气那么热？是我太久没待在笨珍所以不习惯了吗？

害我不知一天冲凉几次。。。我有时会懒惰冲可是我一直流汗所以没选择不冲。。。

星期五那天，下午天气很热但我还是照样出门买东西和剪头发。。。

最近不知道是我倒霉还是自己粗心？！
星期四回家那晚才发现我的mp4 的 usb不见了。。。那时才想到我掉在巴士上
星期五我因为着急所以被东西烫到手指了。。。
今天回来宿舍忘记带mouse和耳机，到了半路才想到我留它们在家里了。。。omg!!!

这个星期五我的老公，小猪要来咯。。。来宣传篮球火。。。
他会来pyramid。。。很开心终于能见到他了。。。
可是不知道他几点会来。。。我看我只能一直待在pyramid等他了...

cost info de assignment is due in this friday...
我还没开始做。。。
这几天又要熬夜了。。。
做完了就等着见小猪。。哈哈
希望他不会放飞机。。。

my new blog

2008-08-14T02:04:00.000+08:00

here is my new blog cos my old blog got a lot of problem so close it edy.....

last few days busy v the company reporting assignment n yesterday summit it edy ...happy+ing
but cost info assignment is due on next week ..... omg .....y the assignment keep coming de ...i hate it ....

but 2day i still wan go home .... after my tutorial class den can go home lo .... miss my home very much ....around one month no go home edy ....i miss daddy, mummy n my popo....they also miss me ba...haha

i go home got reason de ...cos wan 2 celebrate daddy's 60th birthday ....
my two brothers n sis will come bek n celebrate too... look like family gathering ...haha..but i like it n miss it ...long time we dun gather 2gether edy since last few years my sis n bro go overseas....

write next time cos study room leave me only ....time 2 sleep .... i will try my best 2 update again haha...